Palliative

I want you to love me, sweet darling boy
Want you to help me find wonder and joy
Your love is the only way I can see
Of killing the pain of just being me

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Love & best wishes to all
Sammy B

Blue

Your eyes, like a summer evening sky
Draw me in, but I know that I must never
Be close to you, and although it makes me cry
The only way is to give you up, forever

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Love & best wishes to all
Sammy B

Dream

When life goes bad in your dreams
All that's left, it seems
Is to pull down the screens
And drown in your own screams

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Love & best wishes to all
Sammy B

Hidden

Don't go to the city, there are awful people there
That's what they say, those who don't know
But in your arms is the only place I feel safe
Where I can hide, faceless in a sea of faces

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Love & best wishes to all
Sammy B

Nihilism

No reason to stay in
No reason to go out
Nothing to live for
Nothing to die for
Nowhere to call home
Nowhere to defend
No-one to love me
No-one to love back

I am the king of nihilism

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Love & best wishes to all
Sammy B

Judgment

No sense of belonging, you're aching inside
The needing, the wanting, it eats you alive
You wake from your dream, you wake calling his name
No hope for the future, just more of the same

They hate you, they fear you, they wish you were dead
So hard as you try, they're still inside your head
You know that they'll cede you no freedom, no joy
Condemned till forever for loving a boy

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Love & best wishes to all
Sammy B

Generations

For K, hoping always that you find the happiness that has eluded me

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We're facing in different directions
Where once we walked hand in hand
Your eyes looking up to the hopes of the future
Mine cast down at mistakes of my past

Once upon a time I had dreams
Thought I'd find the fulfillment of love
But they proved to be one big illusion
Washed away by the cruel tide of life

Now you're entwined in the arms of your lover
Your joyfulness clear in your face
I still wish you the best for your own sake
While I face nothing but death, all alone

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Love & best wishes to all
Sammy B