Lost

Those times apart, that broke my heart
As from a child you grew
I hoped had gone, we'd carry on
And work out something new

But now it seems that all my dreams
Are hollow, have no rhyme
'Cos in your teens, there are no means
To make up for lost time

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Love & best wishes to all
Sammy B

Decay

Old, worn face in the mirror
Proclaiming the reality
That however much I want
To still be the boy that lives in my head
That dream can never be
All I have is to accept a future
Where I'll decline through to death
And never find the boy of my dreams

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Love & best wishes to all
Sammy B

These

These words, trying to tell the world how I feel
Trying to exorcise the pain inside
What do they achieve? Nothing that I can see
Because the hurt still eats away
Gnawing at my heart and soul
Until all hope. all light is gone
Maybe at another time, in another place
I could love and laugh, be who I know myself to be

But not here, not now, not ever

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Love & best wishes to all
Sammy B

Existence

The blankness of the new page
Mirrors the vacuum inside
Never will love come to fill
The void that lies in my heart

The tears that well in my eyes
Never wash my pain away
I know, as long as I live
That nothing can ever change

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Love & best wishes to all
Sammy B

Mirage

Like the pauper's child on Christmas Eve
Nose pressed against the glass
Seeing all the delights within
So close, but forever out of reach

Happiness, that's for other people

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Love & best wishes to all
Sammy B

Smile

A moment in time, when trajectories met
His gaze catching mine, a look free from all guile
Just for a second, without fear or regret
Two souls become one, by exchanging a smile

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Love & best wishes to all
Sammy B

Palliative

I want you to love me, sweet darling boy
Want you to help me find wonder and joy
Your love is the only way I can see
Of killing the pain of just being me

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Love & best wishes to all
Sammy B